Today has been one of those days where you can’t wait until it is over and you never want to see it again. If that wasn’t bad enough I am over tired, achy and really want a curry, like oh so very badly.
I had to work today, which otherwise would have been my day off, and I worked a split shift so I had a double dose of washing up duty and heavy lifting. Luckily it’s not hard to “ignore” the horrible stuff going on around me and just get on with my work whilst I’m at work.
It’s not easy when you can’t even talk to your best friend, because he is part of the problem. I feel so alone and just want to move somewhere completely different and start over again completely, new country, new living accommodation, new people. But I can’t even do that as I have no way to move anywhere new.
I feel like I am on a road to no where and have no hope of working out what I want to do or be, I have a few random thoughts about things but no idea how to get any of them to become any form of reality, I just don’t know where to start. When you’re in a loop of doom and you can’t find the way out it is hard. I have tried to keep positive but it doesn’t seem to be helping. I don’t know what to do or what to stop doing that will help any more.